I'm not sure what happened to me. Karen and I stopped about 1 week (maybe 2, I can't remember) short of finishing p90x. She got busy, I got busy, maybe we both got burned out (lazy). Whatever the reason, it stinks. I did notice some body shape changes. I was able to do one pull up which was pretty exciting for me. And I felt A LOT stronger. It is a good program... for the disciplined.
Then I suppose Thanksgiving and Christmas happened. I got a big calling in church. School started back up. I could blame a million and one things, but it really all starts with me. I haven't had a drop of excercise since then, unless you count a car wash and walking to and from stores. (Except for when I'm with Mike - finding the closest parking space possible is the name of the game.)
Now for the really frustrating part. I've gained every bit of it back and some. I feel icky. I'm lazy, tired, hungry, bored, unmotivated. You name it, if it's negative, I feel it.
I thought that the new year of 2010 would bring in some urge to set goals and resolutions. We're almost out of January and I'm still not "feeling it." I even went to the doctor the other day, thinking I could blame it on anemia, thyroid deficiency, or any other kind of itis. She wasn't impressed. She told me I looked a little pale then kindly asked how much excercise I've been getting. Oh boy.
Today I hope to make a change. A few of them. I'm tired of being so tired. I'm tired of fighting the bloating. I'm tired of only being able to wear one pair of pants comfortably. I'm sick and tired, tired and sick of making up excuses! This change will be slow, but it will exist.
There are only a handful of people I know that have goal setting skills, an abundance of self-motivation and the competitive edge that gets them what they want. I wish I had all of the above. I don't, so it will be a work in progress.
There are three things I know that will for sure need to change for me to start feeling better again:
My eating, definately my eating.
Sleeping.
Activity.
These are the things I will post about. I want to start p90x up again, but I'm telling you now, it won't be tomorrow. It took all I had today to go for a 2 mile walk in my neighborhood. And the demons in my head were really making it a struggle for me! But I did it and it's a start. I plan to do the same thing tomorrow, then the next day and the next. If all goes as planned, I will take my pre-p90x test on Friday or Saturday to be ready to start on Monday.
It takes a certain mind-frame and mine is not quite there yet. Just today I think I've hit a certain amount of discipline in the eating department. But I usually can do pretty good for breakfast and midday. It's the evening and the snacking inbetween that kills me. So I'm hoping that with my blogging and today's walk, I will be mentally ready for some changes come Monday.
As always, I will try to keep the blog updated. I would like to blog each day, but hey, look who we're talking about. I get pretty distracted. I want to blog about my daily exercise in addition to the things I'm eating. Sleep will just have to get better. (It's the late night with my night owl husband that challenges me.) I'm hoping that if I can touch base with myself at least every other day or 3 times a week by blogging, I will be able to keep it all up. I miss Karen already!
I've been thinking about my goals. I have a million of them in my head. I don't know that I'm quite ready to commit to any of them just yet. I hope to run another 5k. It was doable. I'm not interested in running anything more. It's not JUST that I don't think I can, but I'm just not really into it. I don't really get the thrill that some talk about with running. So another 5k may be a good goal for me. Another goal I have in the front of my thinking is to weigh what I weighed in college (130) on a good day. I can do it! I think, ideally, I should be in my 130s somewhere so it's at least a healthy desire. I know they say that weight shouldn't matter, but it does. Who are they kidding?! One last thought before I close this up. I always thought it would be interesting to go vegetarian. Is it, in fact, healthier? I like veggies, eggs, beans and all that meatless stuff, but it seems that it could be a whole new lifestyle. And I've not even got my current lifestyle down pat yet. What do you think about vegetarianism?
So thanks for bothering to read. I will try to keep up my family blog also. But I will need as much encouragement as possible to make these changes in my life. Until tomorrow?
